8/17/2023 0 Comments Peek a boo i see you losing![]() Today marks a year of empty pockets filled with empty to do lists because I no longer need to be mother to Joshua. Yet God has placed in us the tools we need to feel the highs of love and the darkness of pain. My friend says heaven is a thin veil running beside us, earth is not perfect yet we spend our lives seeking out that perfection, and that my friends is called ,” working out your salvation…with fear and trembling,” because, it is not easy. I choose to see the love – the biggest commandment taught to us as Christians. I felt the loss God did when I looked upon my son dead, I felt the despair and sadness that God must have faced when His own son was crucified and for what? What did Christ ever do that harmed anyone? What did my son do to deserve death or anyone of us to deserve seeing the cruelties of this life. BUT I choose to believe the earth does not exist for a time so short, I choose to believe there is life after death, I choose to believe my son is growing up in heaven because … My faith is as simple as a child’s, and … the bible tells me so. ![]() I hear Christ’s words that says “in this life you will have troubles and trials…in me you will have peace” I read Scott Pecks words that tells us life is difficult!Īnd yet I have felt that peace as if I looked inside me with a magnifying glass wondering how I myself had coped with the death of my own flesh, my little boy Joshua of 19 months who was welcomed into heaven a year ago and yes, I would lie if I said there was no pain, there is. I see the survival instinct that God has exquisitely constructed in our make up. I too see and feel for those that walk beside me in the sorrow, simply allowing me to be and a year later I see my growth. This morning my prayer reaches deep into the hearts of those who hurt, family members that have protected me by showing me support rather than their excruciating pain. ![]() I was so conscious that the rain falls and sweeps the dust away and am reminded of the beautiful lives of everyone that has passed and those lives that have settled back to the new normal on earth. ![]()
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